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On Family [Mar. 8th, 2010|03:19 pm]
Alexxx
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I’ve got a younger brother (he’s 21, I’m 23) who I love dearly. He’s a sweet kid, exuberant, and he makes a great impression on everybody he meets. The only problem is that he’s dating the psychotic harpy from hell. He’s a different person around her.

Just recently, he flew up here from Victoria to spend a week with the family, sans harpy. I was overjoyed. I got to spend a lot of time with him, just hanging out and talking with my parents and my wife Kaitlin. He’s leaving tomorrow, which is fine, because it was a fucking gift and a half to see Ben as he truly is, without some useless cunt latched onto his back screaming and barking orders and acting like a fucking nutcase.

Here we are.

(left to right) Me, my brother Ben, and my dad.

My family is a perpetual source of comfort and happiness in my life, and I just need somewhere to express how fulfilling it is to have all of us together again.

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On Vidya Games, Indie Rock, and Playing Roles [Mar. 6th, 2010|11:34 am]
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I always figured I’d play World of Warcraft a hell of a lot more if I didn’t have to pay for it. I fully realize that Blizzard makes the majority of its money from the game, but I don’t want to feel like I have to put X hours per month into the game just to justify the $15 recurring fee. I’ve been neglecting my Xbox lately, too. It’s little more than a home theatre system at this point, letting me stream my (legally) downloaded movies and music from any one of my three computers. Occasionally I will play some dorky arcade game, but there’s never any ’staying power’ in them. Even now I hear the siren’s song of Modern Warfare 2. I lash myself to the chair and think to myself, “This is how Odysseus must have felt.”

In an effort to expand my musical horizons, I’ve been favoring remarkably vague tags for Last.fm’s radio application. Terms like “hip hop” and “indie”, while ambiguous, will sometimes yield interesting results. Other times, not so much. I’m listening to Passion Pit right now. I’m not sure how I should feel about this.

Kaitlin picked up a Neutral Milk Hotel album on vinyl. Those music snobs were right: vinyl sounds way better. I’ve always known, academically at least, that vinyl gives music a certain brightness that no digital medium could ever hope to reproduce. Hearing ‘In an Aeroplane Over the Sea‘ was pretty fun.

I’ve mentioned my IRC role playing addition several times. Lately, the game has begun to lose its appeal for me. The biggest ‘channel’ (chatroom) I played in basically died as a result of cliques and an unfriendly atmosphere. I found another channel to play in, but I find my interest waning daily. It’s a damn shame, because I love the way I’m able to stretch my creative muscles when I play. It’s been a few days and all I’ve really done is lurk and watch the whole genre in its death throes.

The weekend is upon us. In honor of these auspicious days, I’ve resolved to keep today’s physical activity to a bare minimum. Work this week was pretty long, even if it did go by fairly quickly, and I believe I’ve earned a few days respite.

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On MSN Bots, Preprogrammed Responses, and Period Blood [Feb. 27th, 2010|10:12 pm]
Alexxx
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*****@hotmail.com says:
Mhhm u never know lol I have to make sure! babe u sound confident I like that .. maybe we can trade phone numbers after we chat on cam ?

Alex says:
I’m suspicious now that you are a bot and not a person.

*****@hotmail.com says:
….nice well u can also just watch me if u want….it’s up to u oh babe what’s your favorite color?

Alex says:
My favorite color is blood.

*****@hotmail.com says:
oooh I got the perfect panties for u

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On Stanley Kubrick, Giant Cocks, and Neglect [Feb. 16th, 2010|08:32 pm]
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First, I would like to make something very clear: Stanley Kubrick is fucking awesome. This is one of those few times where an opposing viewpoint is simply incorrect. There is no argument, no appeal, no form of petition. There is only Kubrick. Don’t believe me? That’s fine. You don’t have to believe me. You just have to see this.

Giant cocks? Wonderful!

I thought you’d come around.

I’ve been neglecting Bayonetta. Modern Warfare 2 is collecting dust. I feel terrible for the both of them. Each game, to me, not only represents a delicious morsel of entertainment, but a certain investment in ‘man hours’. I have given hours of my life to be able to afford these games. To waste them is to waste my very time upon this earth! Unacceptable. I will rectify the problem this weekend.

I bitch about work a great deal because it’s basically all I do. To that end, I invite you to stop reading now. Then again, I can hardly bitch. My boss’s dad died yesterday. He was just gone for a week, arrived last Monday, having been taking care of his dad, but he’s got to go again. While that sucks, it also leaves me with all of the Class 1 driving work. I will be the only tractor/trailer driver. The work load is going to be immense, and there isn’t anybody to help spread the workload around.

It’s a bit of a desperate situation, but it seems like my boss’s boss isn’t particularly concerned with it. They aren’t putting ads out in the paper, and they haven’t hired anyone new yet. This could be a problem, because I’ll be damned if I miss out on any vacation time because of it.

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On Creativity and Gainful Employment [Feb. 9th, 2010|07:10 pm]
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Should I try to force creativity? As a rule, I try not to, but after enough ennui, I’m willing to try just about anything. I’ve been playing this text-based free form role playing game on IRC for a while now. It’s really helped me exercise my creative muscles, but every once in a while I find myself drawing a big old blank. As I’ve said before, I’ve noticed that when I’m faced with the possibility of doing anything, I often find myself doing nothing.

With sustained effort, my imagination is capable of giving birth to vast, fantastic worlds with believable histories and entire cultures. In day to day life, however, I find myself staring at an empty text box. Anyway, I’m done belaboring my lost creativity. I doubt it’s likely to help things.

Work has been long and hard, resulting in sore muscles and a tired employee. I haven’t been getting much in the way of sleep these last few days, which only makes matters worse. We need to hire another driver, but for some reason my employers are a little more than reluctant. I’ll take the hours where I can get them, but it’s feeling like an uphill battle, to say the least.

I’m having a relaxing evening enjoying my last bottle of Dos Equis and watching Avatar. I might try to play Bayonetta later on, but it’s doubtful. I can’t even muster the enthusiasm for video games. That’s just sad.

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On Being Unapologetic, Employed, Frustrated, and Excited [Feb. 4th, 2010|07:41 pm]
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I have resolved to never open a blog post with an apology regarding the lack of recent blog posts. Fuck you if you do not like it, sir! You are still reading, which implies some importance on my part, or at least significant boredom on your own. The problem I seem to have with this is that, given my Twitter, I find there is little left for me to say at the end of the day.

Indeed, even during the day, I find myself posting updates on Twitter, and then thinking “Why?” Really, there’s no reason for it. I am writing here because, damn it, I paid for this fucking domain name and I’m damn well going to use it.

I’m not going to bitch about work. How was work, Alex? Work? Work is shit, that’s what it is. I don’t care how fulfilling my job is, the fact that I have to wake up before it’s even 5am every morning sucks. Like I said, though: I’m not going to bitch.

I’ve been thoroughly addicted to Bayonetta. The problem, I find, is that I’ve reached a certain plateau, a plateau upon which lies frustration beyond anything I’ve ever seen. I am faced with two sequential pairs of enemies, each of which I must dodge with unerring accuracy, lest I watch my health bar drop an obscene amount. I’ve managed to make it through the first pair. Once. The second pair subsequently raped the shit out of me.

I am still having trouble sitting down, if you must know.

My brother is coming up here in March. I initially received the news with a kind of reserved excitement. He’s been dating the craziest bitch I ever done heard in my life, you see. They’ve been together for something like six or seven years now. Imagine my surprise when I find out that the aforementioned harpy wouldn’t be accompanying him! It’ll be nice to see him again, and without his girlfriend, he seems to be the brother I knew in a very big way.

He’ll be here for about a week, including one full weekend, so I’ll definitely have a chance to hang out with him. I’ve missed Ben terribly. I went over a year and a half without speaking to him or hearing from him at all, and he only lives in Victoria.

In any case, I’m really looking forward to it. It’s just a shame that I’m basically the only class 1 driver aside from my boss. It means that I won’t really be able to take any more time off until we hire somebody new. The thought is an unsettling one, I assure you.

Perhaps there will be more updates to follow. Perhaps not.

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On Infrequent Updates and Nothing to Say [Jan. 10th, 2010|06:00 pm]
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I find myself wondering, at times, if purchasing the domain name and going through all the trouble of building the website was truly worth it. I update no more than once a week, and today it’s been something like fifteen days since my last update. The reason for this is that I have nothing of value to add.

My biggest problem with blogging is that I’m fully aware that the majority of people ‘out there’ have no interest whatsoever in reading what I have to say. Why I actually have a Twitter account is well and truly beyond me.

I’ve been working on a proposed addition to the role playing game I’m immersed in. The moderators have been exceedingly slow. From conception to now, it’s been about three months, and I’ve made little to no notable progress. It hasn’t been for a lack of trying, I assure you.

I’m watching Hoarders right now. It’s motivated me to keep my house much cleaner than I normally have. My living room remains relatively spotless (the bookshelf will always attract clutter, but it’s not ugly), and Kaitlin recently ran a number on the kitchen. We’re living like kings and queens, lords and rajahs!

My hours for work have been awesome, and Kaitlin’s new job pays a lot better than her last one. We’ve crafted a budget and are adhering to it with an unwavering dedication. Money is in vast abundance. With that in mind, I bought myself yet another knife. I cannot stop acquiring these, nor do I want to.

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On Christmas, Surround Sound, and Long Weekends [Dec. 26th, 2009|10:03 am]
Alexxx
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Christmas! The work week that preceded it was hellish in its own right. I was the only tractor driver for the last few days, and there was much work to be done. I soldiered on, somehow, and managed to finish it with only a minimum of frustration.

Christmas Eve, after work, I picked up the missus and took off to my parents house. We exchanged gifts, and such fine gifts they were! I got a surround sound system that put my previous setup to shame. No less than a thousand watts of power with a subwoofer that actually does what it’s supposed to. I set it up the following morning and I was not disappointed. It has a self-calibration function, wherein you place the microphone where you’re sitting and it adjusts the volume levels accordingly. It had the subwoofer’s levels set at +0.0dB, but I saw fit to increase that number to +6.0dB, which was as high as it would go. Rest assured, if I could have turned it up to eleven, I would have.

I got the warmest socks imaginable, gloves, balaclavas with the lower jaw of a skull printed on them (totally badass), a knitted toque, and an abundance of candy. I also got to speak with my brother on Christmas morning, which is always nice. He’s doing well, and my heart is made warmer for hearing it.

I sit here now on Boxing Day, alone, my better half being scheduled to work on this, the most harrowing day for retail employees. In my pity, I coined the term “retail rape”, but thinking more on it, I am certain the term has been used before. Let’s all send her our best wishes, friends: she’ll definitely need them.

Today I plan to do little more than sit about on the computer, watch movies, enjoy the crystal clear sound that comes from them, and do a bit of cleaning up around the house. Video games are a distinct possibility, but given how much I suck at Modern Warfare 2, I may just enjoy the movies and leave it at that.

How were your holidays, kids? Tell me, in lurid detail, so that we might share in the joy that is getting free stuff in tremendous abundance.

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On Christmas, Children, and Azeroth (but not in that order) [Dec. 20th, 2009|01:54 pm]
Alexxx
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First things firstly: I am getting back into World of Warcraft. The game’s appeal has, for whatever reason, returned to me. I have a hunter of the Night Elf variety (commence laughter) who has made it to the 28th level so far. Kaitlin has also started another character. A human paladin, level (as of this writing) 17.

The initial expectation was that we would level at an even pace (more or less), but things quickly fell apart when it became painfully obvious that I level a lot faster than she does. Hopes remain high, however. We’ll see what happens.

Yesterday, Deacon and I managed to do a bit of running around, two year old Kylie in tow, procuring the various gifts, sundries, and whatnots that would be required for the evening’s Early Christmas Gift Exchangery. By the end of it, I made off with a copy of Modern Warfare 2 and a jacket that appears to have come straight off of the set of Boondock Saints. Both are unbelievably sexy.

Having chased Kylie through half of the goddamn Walmart before cutting her off and scooping her up, we got lunch, ran another small errand or two, and went home. Kylie seemed remarkably pleased with her newfound ability to pee in a potty. Sadly, this resulted in some of the pee (proudly held in the little recepticle by her unsteady hands) landing on my laptop. The laptop was closed, thank God, and only the smallest bit of urine tainted its glossy exterior.

Such cannot be said for my back and t-shirt. She thought it a wonderful idea to pee on me when I wasn’t looking. It is the first time another human being has ever had the opportunity and the desire to do such a thing. I was appropriately amazed.

The evening was much more subdued, consisting mostly of movies and Kylie using me as a high chair while said movies were showing. I distracted her with an iPhone whilst I was busy typing something, and you can see a picture of it here:

 

That is all I have for you, gentle reader. May your Christmas be as merry as you could ever want. I’m certain mine will be.

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On Modern Warfare and Impending Financial Relief [Dec. 4th, 2009|08:38 am]
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I finally managed to finish Modern Warfare 2 the other day. All things considered, I’d say the overall experience was a positive one. I found that the first levels seemed to tease me, to dangle delectable morsels of amazing gameplay in front of my face, only to withdraw said morsels (by which I mean compelling elements of both story and gameplay) at the very last moment. “Not yet,” the game seemed to say. “But soon.” By the game’s climax, every morsel I could have ever hoped for was heaped upon my plate simultaneously. To rapel down a cliff face above my foe and stab him through the heart while I look into his eyes, suspended by a tenuous length of nylon, is to know what it means to truly be alive. I do not exaggerate.

The final moments of the game were incredibly immersive. I won’t spoil anything, but suffice it to say that I was quite literally on the edge of my seat. I will definitely play through the campaign again. As it stands, Deacon was kind enough to allow me to borrow the first iteration of the Modern Warfare franchise. I am told that the story is at least as good. Several reliable sources maintain that it is even better than that of the sequel. I will make my own judgment shortly, I’m sure.

In other news, I managed to persuade my boss to reconsider my value as an employee. I put a strong emphasis on my tenure and current lack of any additional compensation. He seemed to think my argument entirely reasonable, at which point I was instructed to speak with him in a month, provided my raise doesn’t appear in the interim. To say that hopes are high would be a fair assessment of my current situation.

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